11 weeks ~ a fetus

Miracles happen everyday. 

Allahu akhbar! Alhamdulillah.
Thank Allah for your rezeki. 

Peace be upon you, BABY L!

You are growing fast! 

My new Edd will be 15th Dec 2017. In Shaa Allah. 

Pls keep us in your prayers and may Allah ease this beautiful pregnancy journey of mine.  

To those out there trying to conceive, remember never never never give up. KEEP ON TRYING. 

Mummy will see you in 4 weeks time. 

For now be good, grow healthily and back to mummy’s last revision before that 3 mths break from school.

Yes exam,on Monday. 

I can do this. Wish mummy good luck okay! Amin. 

6 weeks 5 days ~ the Heartbeat

Waited nearly 1 hr + and I was the last patient for the day. My heart was beating very fast. Feeling anxious and worried for this ultrasound.

Before the pelvic scan, Prof Tan asked me “How are you feeling this past few days ?”

“I’m hungry always and cramping leh!”
“That’s good, let’s scan! ”

“We should be seeing something right?”

“Don’t be pessimistic! ”

Lol Lydia Lydia….. 

I couldn’t believe my eyes, from the side of my eyes I could see something there at the monitor. YA ALLAH.

Prof Tan called the husband in and of course Lut Hanif the soon to be brother excitedly join in too.

“See there, can hear the heartbeat right.”

Alhamdulillah, Allah is great!

He answered my prayers. 

Yes, we saw and hear the baby heartbeat.

Alhamdulilah. Alhamdulilah. Alhamdulillah.

Edd will be on 25th Dec 2017.

Omg, a day before Mummy’s 37th. 

In Shaa Allah I can’t wait to see you my baby. *tears of joy*

Prof Tan would like to arrange another ultrasound in 3 weeks time. 

“This is still early. Hope the baby grow… I see you in 3 weeks times. Pls take care.  ”

Ya Allah, pls grow healthily my dear baby. I will see you on 27th May 2017. 


Yolk sac only ~ 5 weeks

I’ve been experiencing spotting and abit of bleeding. You know that freaking out moment each time you found out when you are in the toilet.

I know it’s not always a bad sign but you know…… 😦

I was questioning myself. What had I done?  Too much walking? Doing housework.What what???

Last Monday, I had to take 2 days of sick leave to bed rest. Doctor adviced to have plenty of rest and don’t get so stress up.

How not to Right!? (reminded me of my miscarriage, blood…) 

And today, at 3pm I had the first trimester dating. An hour before the meetup with Prof Tan, headed down to AMC for my first ultrasound. The sonographer was unable to detect the scan clearly hence she told me to go for pelvic scan instead.

Wah seh…. Kanchiong liao.  

She told me to pee first, must be damn full lah my bladder I guess. Lol.

For the second time, I went in for the pelvic scan. Wah, damn teruk. Betul nya korek.Korek sana.Korek sini. I had to adjust my butt higher lah. Adjust here and there. Well,I was told no heartbeat as yet as she told me could be an early pregnancy. Ahhh….stress again. She informed that Prof will explained further.

I was devastated. Greatly upset.I expected a heartbeat actually. It supposed to be 6 weeks check up.

Boy calmed me down. He assured me still early and we can’t see anything yet. Even google and showed me some online scans. And keep telling me, “belum rezeki, redha Lydia…” 

Ya Allah, the waiting, the emotion, the nerve wrecking. 

I know this IVF is not guarantee, I will try no matter what and leave it to Allah. He knows best. I will not give up to have my number 2. In Shaa Allah. 

So when I was in the room with Prof Tan, I kept asking him so how many weeks I am? He counted and told me, “5 weeks!” ( 5 weeks pulak, blur aku!)”Let’s arrange for another appointment next Saturday, I will personally scan you.” “By next week , we should see something”

Wah seh, Prof, something!!!

Another stress,another wait…..

Only Allah knows what I’m going through right now.

Be positive Lydia be positive.

Yes, I will. 10 days to go……I will see you my baby, In Shaa Allah.

Spotting Day 2

Woke up and first thing I did was to check for any spotting. Phew. Alhamdulilah.

No more spotting.

Sent the son to his Nenek house. I miss the husband. That daily driving miss Lydia to work and school. Pamper hor.

Drove to work and upon reaching the office, to the toilet again.  Ehh very worrying you know. Yes.

Spotting again.

I took urgent half day off.

My mum was complaining of her legs pain and bloated hands too. Excema getting worsen. Sigh. Bought her lunch. She complained of her bloated hand. “I cant  even put on my own grandson clothes.”Hello, this grandson also pamper lah eh!  He knows how to wear his own clotheslah, nenek . May Allah make it easy for her. Few more mths to go Nenek…..P1 Soon. To student care you go son.

Fetched the husband whom just came back his Bromo ride. Settled the son and had a nap before my night class.

(been missing school for 2 weeks too! Gosh! ) 

Both of them sent and waited for me in school.  Poor them right. Had to learn spelling in the car and mall. Sacrifices sacrifices. We can do this!

Night check again. Alhamdulillah no spotting.

I will continue to monitor again.

Ya Allah, pls make my journey smooth.

Keep my close ones safe and healthy. For me too. Amin.


I was shocked when I saw some spotting on my panty liner before doing my magrib prayers. I bathed and decided to rest on my bed. 

Feeling so down. 

Msg the husband who is currently in Bromo, “is that bad? Pls du’a and rehda aje. Don’t stress yourself.” 

I will continue to monitor. 

Ya Allah, pls save my baby. 

1st day at work + No Ayah

Drove to work today. The husband will be away for his Bromo ride till next Monday. 

Long weekend without Ayah… Booo…. We will miss him definitely. 

Alhamdulilah, back to work today. I shared the good news with few of my close colleagues. Still at my early stage of pregnancy,he certainly they told me to take care of myself. 

It will be another 2 weeks wait till my  6/52 weeks first trimester dating. (But of course no more lying down on the sofa and my TV shows)

Work and School yo! 

In Shaa Allah, I pray pray pray that I will see my baby heartbeat. Amin amin. 

And most importantly to be positive and relax my mind always. 

I can do this!  

Week 12

Today, I had my First Trimester Screening (FTS) at ADC, KKH, 1130hr.

It’s actually a premier service for the screening for Down Syndrome.

  • The vast majority of babies are normal. However all women have a small risk (about 2%) of delivering a baby with a major physical and / or mental handicap. This may be due to a chromosomal abnormality, genetic disease or structural abnormality in the baby.
  • The commonest chromosomal abnormality is Down Syndrome. It occurs in 1 out of every 700 babies born. It causes learning difficulties and, in may instances, multiple medical problems.
  • Some couples may choose to be tested for Down Syndrome as such information may help them prepare psychologically for the birth of a handicapped child or reach a decision on how to continue the pregnancy.
  • Other couples may choose not to be tested for Down Syndrome if they are willing to accept their risk of delivering a handicapped child.
  • An invasive diagnostic test is the only way to know definitely if the fetus has a chromosomal abnormality. However, such a test is associated with a risk of miscarriage (less than 1%).
  • Screening tests are available to better estimate the risk of Down Syndrome in each pregnancy. This may help couples decide if they want an invasive test.

Ultrasound scan of nuchal translucency (NT) at 11-14 weeks is the single most accurate test for the screening of Down Syndrome.

Hence, recommended by Dr SF Loh, I took KKH Package B as below;

Took my blood test on week 11.

Package Tests Detection Rate Results available on Price
A Ultrasound scan at 11-14 weeks 80-85% Day of scan $157.50
B Ultrasound scan at 11-14 weeks
Blood test at 11-14 weeks
90% 2 working days after blood test $315.00
C Ultrasound scan at 11-14 weeks
Blood test at 15-20 weeks
90% 2 working days after blood test $245.40

 Baby Detailed Scan

First Trimester Screening


Baby at Week 12


Hello Baby!

All praise and thanks to Allah, and peace and blessings be upon His Messenger. Alhamdulilah,everything is going well with development so far which is a blessing.

It was indeed a long process for me. Yes, it is indeed tough with the physically, emotionally & mentally difficult I went through. Macam roller coster like that. But to have our very own offspring,no matter how tough, Im willing to sacrifice.

When we decided on the IVF program, Boy reminded me that whatever was to happen would be the will of Allah and that we would accept whatever HIM had planned for us,

“To Allah belongs the kingdom of the heavens and the earth. He creates what He wills. He bestows female (offspring) upon whom He wills, and bestows male (offspring) upon whom He wills. Or He bestows both males and females and He renders barren whomever He wills. Verily, He is the All-Knower and is Able to do all things.” [Qur’an 42:49 – 50].

 We were told of the success rates,

 “By looking at the IVF success rates for couples in which fertilization is normal, the woman’s uterus is also normal and the number of embryos transferred is the same, the main remaining variable is that of the woman’s age. Successful IVF programs, have found that their success rates in such couples remain quite high, 40-45% per attempt, through the thirties until age 35. Then the rates begin to drop fairly precipitously. Success rates at age 41 are generally half that of the below age 35 group and by age 45 they are essentially nil.”

And that never never hinder me from having my very own offspring.

I went through it eventually with my family & friends support.:-)

Now, I pray for a smooth journey, a healthy baby & InsyaAllah my edd will be 2nd Oct 2011.

(nie anak Ayah Boy!Oct baby!)

To all those trying to conceive, DONT GIVE UP, your time will come soon, InsyaAllah, with the effort you put in thus far, ALLAH will reward you with your very own offpsring.