Yolk sac only ~ 5 weeks

I’ve been experiencing spotting and abit of bleeding. You know that freaking out moment each time you found out when you are in the toilet.

I know it’s not always a bad sign but you know…… ūüė¶

I was questioning myself. What had I done?  Too much walking? Doing housework.What what???

Last Monday, I had to take 2 days of sick leave to bed rest. Doctor adviced to have plenty of rest and don’t get so stress up.

How not to Right!? (reminded me of my miscarriage, blood…) 

And today, at 3pm I had the first trimester dating. An hour before the meetup with Prof Tan, headed down to AMC for my first ultrasound. The sonographer was unable to detect the scan clearly hence she told me to go for pelvic scan instead.

Wah seh…. Kanchiong liao.  

She told me to pee first, must be damn full lah my bladder I guess. Lol.

For the second time, I went in for the pelvic scan. Wah, damn teruk. Betul nya korek.Korek sana.Korek sini. I had to adjust my butt higher lah. Adjust here and there. Well,I was told no heartbeat as yet as she told me could be an early pregnancy. Ahhh….stress again. She informed that Prof will explained further.

I was devastated. Greatly upset.I expected a heartbeat actually. It supposed to be 6 weeks check up.

Boy calmed me down. He assured me still early and we can’t see anything yet. Even google and showed me some online scans. And keep telling me, “belum rezeki, redha Lydia…” 

Ya Allah, the waiting, the emotion, the nerve wrecking. 

I know this IVF is not guarantee, I will try no matter what and leave it to Allah. He knows best. I will not give up to have my number 2. In Shaa Allah. 

So when I was in the room with Prof Tan, I kept asking him so how many weeks I am? He counted and told me, “5 weeks!” ( 5 weeks pulak, blur aku!)”Let’s arrange for another appointment next Saturday, I will personally scan you.” “By next week , we should see something”

Wah seh, Prof, something!!!

Another stress,another wait…..

Only Allah knows what I’m going through right now.

Be positive Lydia be positive.

Yes, I will. 10 days to go……I will see you my baby, In Shaa Allah.

Spotting Day 2

Woke up and first thing I did was to check for any spotting. Phew. Alhamdulilah.

No more spotting.

Sent the son to his Nenek house. I miss the husband. That daily driving miss Lydia to work and school. Pamper hor.

Drove to work and upon reaching the office, to the toilet again.  Ehh very worrying you know. Yes.

Spotting again.

I took urgent half day off.

My mum was complaining of her legs pain and bloated hands too. Excema getting worsen. Sigh. Bought her lunch. She complained of her bloated hand. “I cant ¬†even put on my own grandson clothes.”Hello, this grandson also pamper lah eh! ¬†He knows how to wear his own clotheslah, nenek . May Allah make it easy for her. Few more mths to go Nenek…..P1 Soon. To student care you go son.

Fetched the husband whom just came back his Bromo ride. Settled the son and had a nap before my night class.

(been missing school for 2 weeks too! Gosh! ) 

Both of them sent and waited for me in school.  Poor them right. Had to learn spelling in the car and mall. Sacrifices sacrifices. We can do this!

Night check again. Alhamdulillah no spotting.

I will continue to monitor again.

Ya Allah, pls make my journey smooth.

Keep my close ones safe and healthy. For me too. Amin.


I was shocked when I saw some spotting on my panty liner before doing my magrib prayers. I bathed and decided to rest on my bed. 

Feeling so down. 

Msg the husband who is currently in Bromo, “is that bad? Pls du’a and rehda aje. Don’t stress yourself.” 

I will continue to monitor. 

Ya Allah, pls save my baby. 

1st day at work + No Ayah

Drove to work today. The husband will be away for his Bromo ride till next Monday. 

Long weekend without Ayah… Booo…. We will miss him definitely. 

Alhamdulilah, back to work today. I shared the good news with few of my close colleagues. Still at my early stage of pregnancy,he certainly they told me to take care of myself. 

It will be another 2 weeks wait till my  6/52 weeks first trimester dating. (But of course no more lying down on the sofa and my TV shows)

Work and School yo! 

In Shaa Allah, I pray pray pray that I will see my baby heartbeat. Amin amin. 

And most importantly to be positive and relax my mind always. 

I can do this!  

Positive +


I was in the car with the husband when the nurse informed me of my blood test result.

I couldn’t hold my tears.

Even the husband said,”nak nangis nangis……” (if you want to cry , cryyyy, cry it out!)

I was told to return to KKIVF for my medication in the afternoon.

And my 2WW ended with super great news.

Thank you ALLAH!


I came back in the afternoon to collect my blood test results, and also my 3 types of medication for my positive pregnancy. 

BHCG on 12 April 2017,412.8 iu/L

My next appt will be Prof Tan Heng Hao on 26 April 2017. 

An hour before seeing the doctor, I will need to be at AMC Women’s Tower Level 1 at 3pm for my first trimester dating. 

Collected 3 types of medications  that cost $165.

And back to work tmr….. And School assignment to do.(missing out classes too)  I can do this. In Shaa Allah. 

I pray for a smooth and healthy pregnancy. Amin amin. 

The day

The 2WW ended today. 

I went for my blood test appointment at 730am. 

Pray and hope.

Let’s wait for the call….. Bismillah 

Ya Allah, you know best.

Be nice

positive Lydia positive….. 

In Shaa Allah…