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Hello WORK!

Blessed Friday, Alhamdulilah

THANKS ALLAH for HIS blessing.

The 2WW.

Yes the 2 weeks wait.

Finally, after months of trying, of needles, injection & waiting…..

Im finally Pregnant!


From BHCG level of 209 to 504.

That means my pregnancy is progressing well.:-)

I cried when the KKIVF nurse called me up to inform me of the results.Was in the midst of having lunch at Hj Maimunah Bencoolen Mosque with Lenny & Rendra. Lenny cried too. Alamak so paiseh man cried in front of them. LOL 

It was cried of joy.:-)

Called Boy whom is at school & informed him of the good news.

A blessed Friday indeed.

Im so so happy, For now, pray to have a safe, healthy pregnancy and a healthy, virtuous baby/babies, InsyaAllah.

pray & wait

My 19 days HL is over liao.

Today i took MC.

Feeling so low.

Still worried though.

Tomorrow will be the day, the outcome of my IVF.

Pray & wait ……

The Outcome….

In the morning, Boy alighted me at KKH for my BHCG test before heading for school.

I was alone then. Due to school of course, he cant join me.

I went straight to KKIVF, the test took less than 15mins.

And, i just need to wait for that CALL in the afternoon.

Definitely, the waiting was a nerve wrecking for me.

Only Allah knows….

While waiting for that call, I decided to meet dearest Ernie for lunch at Bugis. Was in the toilet when I saw a familiar no. on my phone.

I picked up.

“Lydia, pls comfirm your NRIC no.”


My heart was beating very fast.

“Congratulation you are POSITIVE!”


My BHCG “the pregnancy hormone” results is POSITIVE.

BUT KKH need to recomfirm my pregnancy , as my bchg level is 209.

The usual level should be 250.


BHCG levels should double approximately every 2 days for the first four weeks of pregnancy.

As pregnancy progresses the doubling time increases.

Sat inside starbucks,(needed the aircon while waiting for Ernie, still deciding whats for lunch actually) tried to call Boy but failed. Got a called from Rini instead, shared with her of the good news.

Then I quickly smsed him.He replied and was in the midst of lecture, that’s whylah no reception.:-(

Headed down Swensen, Ernie came & both of us just hugged each other and with tears in our eyes for a couple of minutes.Yes, the crowd around us must be wondering, apasal dua budak nie menangis dan berpelukan LOL

Right from the start of my TCC to my 2008 miscarriage and even my IVF journey, she was also among the girls whom was there for me. Thank you.

Chatted & ate our lunch together for nearly 2 hrs, then back to work for Ernie & me headed home.

I then started to do my research on the BHCG level.( anxious & worried at the same time of course )

Guideline to hCG levels during pregnancy:


hCG levels in weeks from LMP (gestational age)* :

  • 3 weeks LMP: 5 – 50 mIU/ml
  • 4 weeks LMP: 5 – 426 mIU/ml
  • 5 weeks LMP: 18 – 7,340 mIU/ml
  • 6 weeks LMP: 1,080 – 56,500 mIU/ml
  • 7 – 8 weeks LMP: 7, 650 – 229,000 mIU/ml
  • 9 – 12 weeks LMP: 25,700 – 288,000 mIU/ml
  • 13 – 16 weeks LMP: 13,300 – 254,000 mIU/ml
  • 17 – 24 weeks LMP: 4,060 – 165,400 mIU/ml
  • 25 – 40 weeks LMP: 3,640 – 117,000 mIU/ml
  • Non-pregnant females: <5.0 mIU/ml
  • Postmenopausal females: <9.5 mIU/ml


* These numbers are just a GUIDELINE– every woman’s level of hCG can rise differently. It is not necessarily the level that matters but rather the change in the level.

For now, Pray that the level will double up in the next 2 days for me.


Wait , wait & wait……


There’s still spotting.

So far not much blood,Im just afraid of blood clot.

It reminds me of my 2008 miscarriage.:-(


I had spotting!:-(

Can be good or bad sign!!!

Probably no hope for me….

Still monitoring.

Did a pregnancy test at home, it was NEGATIVE.

Wednesday, will be my BHCG test, the day to comfirm whether my pregnancy is positive or negative.



Saw a small dot of blood clot.:-(((((

Ya Allah, Tuhan sahaja yang tahu what Im going through…

The waiting….

Not an easy journey indeed.

The waiting time is nerve wrecking.

The disappointment feeling, how ?Can I go through it?

AND a whole lot of waiting….and more waiting.